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| I'm moving to Facebook....
Seth Randall Ring
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| Something is wrong with me today, I don't know what. Rather, I do know but am unsure how to properly deal with it. I'm split, divided into two people fighting for control of one body. I fight to retain my independence and the life I would choose while struggling, against my nature, to conform. Knowing even as I battle that conformity is without question the higher path. I want what I see as mine, those petty things that have defined my life to this point. I want to escape, stepping away from the pain I feel in my heart, the constant weeping of my spirit. Oh, for those blissful days of solitude, those sweet nights without a care for the world when I was content to let everything flow around me, an observer gazing at the sea of life without being caught in the current. Its too late. I know too much. I cannot accept the wall that sheltered me from the storm of feeling threating my soul. A new Seth, tearing the wall down faster then the old Seth can build it.
My soul needs rest....but first there is a war to fight.
**edit** Untill further notice my xanga activities will be suspended. My life needs to simplify (if thats possible). I hope to be back soon.
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| I know I've been saying this a lot...but I'm going to start writing....and in thats spirit I am scheduling at least an hour a day for it.
What I need is sentence starters, ideas, etc... from you, my esteemed public. So, if you wouldn't mind sending me an e-mail with said ideas I would appreciate it.
p.s. in other news I need a bible study as well. Any ideas?
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| Life is moving right along. Funny how it seems to do that these days.
I'm working two jobs, sleeping every now and again, missing my heart, and trying to maintain contact with my friends. Its a lot harder now that I have no time. I suddenly remember why I never worked two jobs. I don't mind the work, really, I don't. I do mind the never having time to hang out with people I like hanging out with.
I need a bible study. I need something. I dunno what, but I can feel it there. Don't get wrong, life is good. If I died and went to heaven right now I would still get the "Most Blessed" award. God is continually lifting me up and teaching me, conforming my heart to His. I think I need to settle down now. I think I need to stick with a Church and start giving my time and gifts. I don't really know how to go about that though.
Truthfully, I'm scared of settling down too. I'm scared of others disliking the way I practice my faith. I am scared of the looks and comments from older people who assume that because I am young my faith is not as mature as theirs. In all honesty, I hate going to church some times because of the looks I get when I speak. I hate talking to Christians sometimes because of the immediate dismissal of my ideas. It has been a long time since I have learned something NEW from a sermon though I must say; I've been attending a presbyterian church recently and have been learning from the sermons, just nothing having to do with what the Pastor is preaching about.
I'm always talking about Fearless Life, right? I guess its time I started applying it to my Church life. Time to get involved.
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| I just bought a bible to keep in my car. It cost $26 and there was only two cheaper models. Most of the others cost closer to $35. I picked up one that was $46. That is absurd. Come on. Its a freakin' BIBLE!!! The word of GOD HIMSELF! I want to know where Christian publishing companies get off thinking the bible is something to charge an arm and a leg for scripture. Sorry, that bugs me.
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